- H u i y u - 23 years old - 16June 1987 - Club 21 Distribution (S) Pte Ltd -
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Now that everything comes together..
I AM JUST A FUCKING FOOL.
All taken for granted, how am I going to build up this trust again?
I tried so so so hard to keep you accompanied when I'm worried that you would be bored without these 'friends'.. I tried my very best to plan outing to east coast for cycling, steamboats, playing pool, bday celebration etc.. spending all the time I have to keep you occupied and not feel bored.. but u were not contented at all for what I have done.. AND u took it ALL for granted and LIED to me AGAIN.. I wonder HOW MANY TIMES do you need this to be repeated again and again to realise that you are not learning from your MISTAKES.
What's the point of saying sorry all the times when you already know that what you are going to do is going to hurt me? What is that for? For you to feel better? Or for me to feel better for just that moment with me not knowing that you are going to hurt me again?
So am I suppose to thanks this accident that you finally know how to think? or thanks those 'things' out there for helping me to save you from another round of 'deeper shit'? Or maybe I'm saying all these just way too early? more to come? Haa!
I really have no idea to laugh at myself or cry to make myself feel better now.. I have not even settled down from the previous one and now another round of SHIT to worry abt.. How great..
I'm fucking going to have another night of nightmare..
ANGEL VS DEVIL Devil on me at this moment of time.. I'm so FUCKING tired..