I'm sorry I could not meet you guys with my current mood now.
I'm scare I would drag everyone's mood down with me..
I know staying at home might just make myself think more and feel even worst.
but I know myself that I would not feel any better if I am out..
I would just be the very fake me and I would not enjoy at all.
I don't want to spread my saddness to anyone..
I rather stay at home and emo myself..
I guess they must be enjoying themselves now..