I'm back blogging, I guess I could only throw all my feelings through blogging and it will make me feels better.. hopefully..
so if you happen to be back reading my 'suppose-to-be-closed' blog, please bare with me for being rather random and emo.. thanks..
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I feel like a clown,
having to hide my feelings
behind the 'smiling face' mask..
putting it on in the morning before I get out of bed
and taking it off in the night when I go to bed..
struggling to slp in the dark alone..
when you have decided to put it to an end,
have you thought of how it even begins and
the happy memories that we had together?
How scary can one be to have a sudden change
in attitude to some one that one has once loved so deeply..
I was hoping for an impossible miracle.. how dumb can I be?
i miss you, i really do..