Thursday, September 10, 2009
I keep asking myself & wonder..
Why am I still holding on? WHY?
But I have no answer to myself..
I just can't seem to let go so easily..
I did tried but I failed & I felt terrible=(
It's like trying to hold on to something that does not belong to me anymore...=(
Maybe cos you just mean so much to me..
I'm in a really bad mood today.. ARGHHH!
I think everyone has a limit point which will just erupt at any time.
So many things that are making me so frustrated now!
I don't know how long more I can stand strong anymore.
It's super tiring and I have no mood for anything.
Lots and lots of thoughts running through my mind at the same time.
How I wish everything can just suddenly end and I no longer need to think so much.
I'm sick of thinking so much and tired of moving on.. Feeling damn damn F*** UP now.
But no one will understand how I feel..
Some might even think that I am making a big fuss over 'small' things which they would never know how much they actually mean to me..
If it is so easy to let go and look for another one so quickly, it just means that you have not even fall deep enough in the relationship at all.. If that is so, why did it even has to begin, going through so much together and lasting for this long?
Everything just suddenly seem so fake now.. =(
If I really leave now, will you miss me?
11:57 PM